Change…
I hate it. Doesn’t matter if it’s good or bad. It puts a knot in my stomach and makes me want to say really bad words that I don’t use anymore…or as much.
It comes to the point where I have to grieve over all the old stuff. Friendships ending or changing, a new work schedule, getting a new car, moving into a new house, an old restaurant closing, my bed in a new position. I try to be the type of person who is smooth like butta but I’m actually hard like margarine.
So how am I to deal efficiently with change? Accept it. Easy huh? Well as soon as that happens it tends to get easier. Most of time I can look back on a situation and know that if the change had not occurred then something good would not have happened. Unfortunately, that never happens soon enough.
When I first hear of a change I want to resist it and figure out how to keep it from happening. I obsess over it and want to have meetings with people who the change effects and hopefully those in the meeting will agree with me that IT SUCKS! But you know what…the change still happens.
I’m going through a change right now and it does suck. I want to go to safe places and mourn the change and stay with safe people that love and accept me for who I am. At the same time I know that I have to give this to God and let him have the control that I want but know that I don’t have.
So, pray for me and the others and know that we are one in Christ and will ultimately grow stronger through it and that it will prepare us for the next change to come.
